Something must be wrong with me

Everyday a wonder why I can't get you off my mind and I see you with every step
Its like sometimes a wanna die feels like am loosing my mind it's evident
That something must be wrong with me
I'm not as happy as I seem to be
The long showers I take don't wash away the memories
Why do I have to face these tragedies
We go thru struggles in life I'm aware
But to have my baby gone so soon feels like its just not fair
It stopped me from believing in the future
Believe me babe you left back a monster